This is my first campfire so bare with me, but I just HAD to tell someone! if this isn't approved, ya'll can delete it.
But I'm sitting here resisting the urge to BANG my head over and over on my keyboard. I might be slowly loosing my mind... and it's ALL HIS FAULT! Yes HIM!!!!
OK... lemmie just quit stalling and get to the point! I did something COMPLETELY out of character because I just got to blinded by all this... I dunno like Twilight/Edward/Rob fic induced coma I've fallen into. I've been home sick for over a week and just reading, reading, reading and I think maybe somewhere the lines got blurred (I also blame enormous amounts of cold medicine for this)... anyways I actually made a RL decision based off my er, fascination, with his man and now I'm too Embarrassed to tell any of my RL friends. But the secret is EATING away at me! The super fukked up part is I would totally do it again! I just know they won't understand, hell some of ya'll would might think I'm nuts too, but maybe someone... anyone... might not I've lost my mind? That would make me feel 10x better!
But really, am I alone in all this? Has anyone else made any kind of RL choice/change/decision based off anything related to the fandom??? Taken piano lessons, played a family game of baseball, apply to any schools in Alaska or even to Dartmouth, maybe meet someone who reminds you of Rob/Edward so much because he's the same height, complexion, with a accent and that messy beautiful hair and he sings and plays piano & guitar, and dropped out of medical school to pursue music and smokes and curses and is completely insane but incredibly brilliant and maybe you actually start to picture Rob/E when he kept talking in that Same accent saying stuff you don't 100% understand and then he's not talking and its GREAT and then your like WTH did I just do? I can't think of any more examples because my incident is the only one blinking in bold neon in the front of my brain...
Ok thanks for letting me just get that out!