Well, technically not pulling, but definitely re-writing.
I’ve given it a lot of thought. I was actually going to do this once I got the 13th chapter of my main WIP out (So it wouldn’t that bad of a shock, after all I already warned of a hiatus on its way), but so far I haven’t been able to churn out anything that could pass as a chapter that’s “in- character” in regards to the present version of my fic. It’s just…not working. No matter how hard I try to write ch.13, I keep going back to my old copies of chapters one, two, and three and re-writing them. Hell, I’m already on ch.4.
I’ve looked at my early chapters, compared them to the most recent ones, and realized that the flow, the tone of the writing itself, doesn’t match. I had a completely different mindset when I began, still figuring things out, still not setting things in stone, and throughout the experience I learned a lot. More so if I hadn’t posted in the first place. A huge learning experience, I guess you could say.
It made me remember why I wanted to write this story in the first place, and that because I was under the impression I had to conform to a framework because it was fan fiction, I put what I really wanted on the back burner in order to write/focus on what I thought was supposed to be written/focused on.
And then I finally had an epiphany: I don’t have to follow any sort of guideline. I can write what I want to write. I don’t have to have the story closely tailored around Edward and Bella, or any of the other canon characters, I don’t have to write from certain POV’s in the first place because the truth is, my story, as someone commented after looking over a past chapter I’d written, is “not really about Twilight.”
And that’ s the truth. Resent isn’t about Twilight, at least, not completely.
To the person who commented, thank you, by the way. You know who you are.
Now, you may ask, “why post a wip in the first place?” well, the truth was, I didn’t think the fandom would still be around once I completed Resent. It was 2010, the twi-craze was already dying down somewhat, and I thought it would be risky to take my time and finish the story first before posting. I thought I was working on borrowed time. Plus, I wasn’t sure if the twist I had going with my main oc’s. would be received well.
The reviews and the fact that a good number of us are still here kind of blows those pre-conceived notions out of the ballpark, to my sweet relief.
What I said in past thread posts still stands: as long as the story is posted, it is not abandoned. Hiatus maybe, but not abandoned. The fact that it is still there means that I’m still a part of the fandom. If I ever decide to flounce, there is no way in hell that I would ever leave any of my writing’s unmonitored on the internet. If I ever decide to discontinue, you readers will be the first to know.
I’m leaving the current copy of Resent on ff.net, twilighted, and twcs for these reasons, and also because I know there are some who still enjoy re-reading the posted chapters. I’m sorry if this is upsetting. I know the update schedule for this fic has been somewhat tumultuous and nail-biting, especially with how things were left the last chapter, but I feel like if I don’t say something now, I’m going to end up posting something bland and soulless. Once I’ve written enough of the new version (or completed it) I’ll pull the old version and start re-posting.
I won’t hold it against you if you flounce, just don’t tell me that you are.
Again, I’m sorry about this guy’s, but my gut is telling me this is something I have to do.
So, thoughts?