Good afternoon, ladies and gents. ;)
So i finally finished tech school, and wouldn't you know it, just in time for the memorial day free for all :D.
I've been having a very productive couple of weeks, been having fun, and....well long story short, I've been talking to this guy from back home for little more than a month now (after the whole thing with security forces guy happened) . He picked me up from the airport yesterday, had a great time catching up. He's taking me out on a date Saturday--he actually asked me out when I was still in Texas...My first official one...l can't really count the meals I had with security forces guy as dates. Not when we were in ABU's and just at the local pizza parlor....
Anyway....we sort of have a history. Lets call him churchboy. See, churchboy and I knew each other from the AF DEP (delayed entry program). Basically, anyone who's in DEP is waiting for an AF contract/leave date for boot camp. He ended up getting discharged back in november of last year (special forces. It's pretty rough. the washout rate is like 75%).
He ran PT when we were all in DEP, but me and him were the only ones who always showed up. He was kind of the religious guru of the group, hence the name church boy, and we used to spend so much time talking after pt about a lot of crap. I enjoyed his company... He was a natural leader, wicked smart, down to earth...and would have made an outstanding Airman. I had a lot of respect for him. I still do...
I had a huge crush on him, but I didn't think he was interested. So i never put myself out there during our talks. Also, I used to think he was extremely restrained when it came to being intimate with someone since he was soo into religion at the time..., which wouldn't have really worked out for me...
Now fast forward a bit: we start talking a couple of weeks ago. and he admits to me that he liked me back in the day. :) He jut didn't say anything because he was afraid he might get us both in trouble since he was kind of in a position of power, and that I probabaly wasn't interested in him that way. So the attraction was and is mutual. Apparently I made PT somewhat difficult for him...;D In the resulting texts between us, I've learned this: churchboy has a sexy side :D
Now where is this leading, you my ask? Well.... I like him a lot. DOn't judge please. t's just...I'm seriously considering him being my first. Yes, you read correctly. I know, I'm on leave and I'm not going to be home longterm, but...I really like him....
I'm...curious. Waiting for the perfect "one", is a very nice fantasy...but I've learned certain things about myself while on my own, and one of them is that I don't really want to close myself off like that.... and the only reason I was ever hesitant about those sort of thoughts before was because of my familys influnce. Being away from them has allowed me to be free to test what kind of person I am. Am I saying I want to be a floozy? No. At it's heart, my parents taught me to wait for someone special, and the thing is, HE is.
So tell me....what made you decide to give up your v card? How long into the relationship before it happened, and do you regret it?